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I cant help but feel like crap, in my endevor to find employment ive done all the right things yet with the 40
+ job applications ive turned in with no feedback from any of them, i cant help but feel like a peice of steaming turd. wat is there for me to do!? because all i do isnt good enuff. i jus miss My Girl, i cant help but be happy around her, make me feel like there is some sorta use to my existance. even just recently seeing her, i still miss her, wishing she wud smile, but recently she dosent, i wish she did. i love her, she cant understand it, she even thinks she loves me more, but either way im hers, and untill life stops hatin on me, ill take her away with me, never to see my family again

Cencorship

From doing reasearch on recent activity by the proposed ACTA  it has come to my attention that in signing this act the goverment now has permission to spy on u, see everything we do online, this include dissabling torrent sites and materials on these site, thats rite folks, the government is cencoring our internet, with free range to our internet surfing information and everything, in simple terms, THIS IS WRONG! this isnt the land of the free, this is the land of do what ur told or else, isnt that 'why America was formed, being controled and unfairly taxed by the brittish, and now they are doing it to us UGH!!! this is so wrong! i am pissed off at wat kind of system this is, hiding behind "by the People for the People" more like Their People. the Common man has no say, What they say goes. call me stupid, call me ungratefull, but im not proud to be an american, our rights are being taken away.

Thoughts

well here i am again, i can help but think about my girlfriend (who i shall call L in my blog) there is something about her, she is all i can think about, it reminds me of the time when we first started talking, i cant get her off my mind, I'm happy bout this, its fun how in the beginning things become so cautious trying not to feel a certain wat in order to not be hurt but as things grow and deepen these thing are thrown into the wind its not a i shud limit this feeling its a lets make it deeper, so here i sit at the kitchen table and think about this depth, its so new to me, i never knew this was possible, either way i don't care, i love her, i cant help but think about a future with her, cant help but think about spending the rest of my life with her, she make me happy, whether she can believe it or not, i am happy. happy I'm hers, and happy shes mine.

Boredom

Yet another weekend that im stuck chaperoning my sister and her boyfriend, while i miss the hell out of my girlfriend, tho i cant really complain cuz i do have wat ive been looking for, i jus miss her, why the hell did i have to get in a car accident, tho i didnt chose it , it jus happened but u get my drift, i jus wanna get out of here, my escape is only sulking along the mall as they do their gooey gooey thing, id sasy its sickening but im probly the same way, hoping for some l8r developments for the rest of my night, hell maybe ill do somthing exciting, or maybe ill jus do wat i usually do, idk.. no devlopments on a job yet, i find it quiite amazing that i can go for so long with work coming out of my ears but now its jus me begging for work, applying to pretty much everywhere , following up and hearing absolutly nothing back from them, and sumhow the ecconomy is improving, its all a bunch of bullshit watever